I dont know why but i am very upset. All of my friend that i used to laugh together before are gone. They are dissappeared. And it is disppointed me, i mean it. I can feel the enthusiastic sounds when i heard that they are meeting new friends or even have a new boyfriend or a crash or whatever but they are not feels like what i feel. They are nooott.. They are not even care about me. Even when im onlining, facebook, or ym or whatever online sites, they are just ignored me. If i did talked to them then they will only reply it after an hour or just like busy term of replying and after a few sentences they posted to me they will ended it with ths "oh ok la nak masak, k bye""oh ok la nak mandi, k bye" Weird? But hell this is true. I dont know but they are so, ultra annoyed to me now. Grrr! They are not honestly wants to reply it actually. They act like they hates me. They are only expect that i am selfish, because i am busy with my boyfriend. Actually they are just not understands my situation. Well, that is fine for me. I dont wanna think. It doesnt benefit me anyhow, it is just a waste. LOL! I am actually did tried to contact and tried to be friendly to them again but it is just not more than just a piece of shit. They are not even ignored it but they did not even care. I think, its better to talk to someone who is my new friend rather than my old ones. They wont be able to even reply it with those nice words. So yeah, i have to move on. I do hope, with all the new people that i met, i'll have a new life with them. InsyaAllah..
Sometime i feel like, its better being as a baby rather than as a teenage, they cry when they wants something, they smiles when they are happy, they sleep when they are tired. They are easy! Everybody's loves them. Hahaha they are too cute grrr
See, it is easy being as a kid, they had a fight and they back together after 5 minutes hahaha
Kids dont know how to cheated on thier friends, they are just know how to play and being happy together. Kids life are just fun! They know what is friends stands for.
Today i had a lot of fun and totally happy today. i love my life now. so much joy. Today, i had a very nice day with new peoples who are very friendly and very funny which is my netball team hahahahaa the seniors are so sporting, i dont feel the gap between us. They are super committed to us and very kind of teaching and telling us everything that we asked. Yesterday, I and Kak Yaya took a bus to got back to malacca, so yeah our bus arrived at 10pm and my bad im late for it and almost miss it and me and mama and jajar did ran like a stupid snails at bukit jalil last day hahhaha imagine, my mum running. hahahaha
I wont facing the same problem for the 2nd time. Where i did missed the bus. It was happen when i was at the melaka central that time, well this is my frist time took a bus from Malcca to KL without a friend. Imagine la, with all of the things that is very heavy for me, i am alone, waiting like a stupid beggar and yeah at last, i found that i was in the wrong platform like shitttttttttttt no wonder there is no bus to KL!! Grrrrrrrrrr! So yeah i decided to take a bus if i have a friend to go back with me! Pffft thanks to kak yaya for being such a good bus partner hahaahaha
Now, is almost 9.30 right, im here still not going for the shower yet hahaha but who cares right? Nobody here! Hahahaha I had a free dinner today thanks to kak yaya andd now, im thinking about hmmm you know who is he right...
The boy that i really love
The boy that i really care
The boy that i really want to be with forever
The boy that know how to makes me smile
The boy that told me that im beautiful
The boy that always told me that he loves me more than anything
Yes, it is him,
ADY ZHARIF (:
My other half is him (=
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND. Clear here?
I cant even think, how will i be if he's not around anymore. When i was thinking about Yaya, i think, most of us know about her. She lost her bf :( i cant imagine if i am her and im in her condition. I cant i cant i bet i'll die. If i did brokeup then its fine i'll be okay but if he left me because of he is dead oh man thats hard. Its a love man love not a joke its a love, its like dying if i lose it. Im realize now that he means a lot to me and i dont think so that i can live without him in my life. I can feel the sadness that yaya owns. I can feel how its hard to beleive that her bf is not around, i understand how bad she feel now and last i know, that even she smiles, doesnt mean that she is happy. She's missing her other half mann! If it is happen to me, i know i wont be okay as soon as everybody wants because, my soul are not there my heart are not fine my life are dead and gone. So yeah it doesnt sounds like a pretty life right? So what i will do is just to pray from now and wish that he's be with me as long as i am still alive. Starting from now, i will try to change and try to be better for us. I want him to know that i am really appreciatte with whatever he does for me and i am really proud for having him in my life. Hah! I dont know i dont know but my mind keep thinkin about this lately. Hmmm and i wish, Allah, will let him be with me as long as im still alive. InsyaAllah, and lets together we pray for our late Amirul Aiman, may he is rest in peace and Al-Fatihah for him..
To Yaya,
Baby, you have to be strong, no matter what life must go on. I and your friends and even your family, all are there for you sayang, what you have to do now, try to accept all these. Things happened for a reason sayang, all the hee haw sound will be ending with the haa hee sound so yeah just try and pray to our One and Only Allah, may He accept all of your prayers and put Aiman with the people that He loves. I know, it is still new for you, i hope you are getting better soon. I cant stand to see you sad and even hear that you cry and everything. I know its hard but you've to try, and yeah dont let him sad up there baby. Al-Fatihah
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