1 year

It has been almost a year im taken by him.

I try to smile but my mouth is suddenly dry. I cant believe how nervous i feel. I dont know why should i feel nervous? About my 1st year annyvesary? But it is the truth. This is worse than school report. Really! *sighs I have a horrible feeling, i might burst into tears any moment. And now, my adrenaline is pumping through my body. Im so wound up and i barely know what i am supposed to do :s I love him and to be honest, im scared to lose him :( He's like my everything. I can't even think how i will be without him in this world. I know, I should stop now, it's so scary. Positive thinking please. Stop it.

The truth is, i am so enthused. Hahahaha I had no idea it would be so nice!!

Forget about it, no ones care! haha well i've been quite busy now, busy with my family. Yesterday, paksu came to my house, talking about his direct selling business hhaaha On the night maksu came, for no reason hahaha sometimes, i feel like my house is like a service caunter, or maybe a zoo? hahaha Now, this morning my house are quite apart from any heehaw sound. It's as though after the hubbub of yesterday, everyone's a bit exhausted. In fact, as i woke up this morning, Jajar gaves me an enormous yawn and okay wangi gila bau mulut kau !! Grrrrr!

I am now, been so dull with my life. I spent more time sitting alone and thinking nothing. It's amazing, what a strange person i am nowadays. No more laughing matter, no more jokes come out from my mouth. I mean for my friends. I am busy entertain my family and him. No friend no war. Hahaha It's like i've been transformed. I am a new Balkis. What i've learned is if you cant even makes your loved one happy then what is life all about? Right? For these 3-4 days, i and ady are always had a fight. I always told him that i wanna go out. Have some drinks with my friends, but he kept angry and told me to do not going out to meet my friends. But when i think back about what has my friends did for me, i smile and calm. There's nothing :) So dont wasted your time for them. Live your life Bakish.

Yes, im strong enuf now. Been waiting soo long for them to call or text me but okay, nothing. So, pleaseeeeeee. Dont talk about them...

To make it simple and nice, let just off to the list of my top of my head :)

1) So rindu dekat Ady and excited for our 1st year anny!
2) Excited, waiting for my car =p a brand new one. Local car pun local car la hahaha Alhamdulillah :)
3) Will get a new brand one laptop too! =p
4) Will be leaving KL soon =(
5) Will be missing my one and only robot, AdyZharif so much!!
6) Planning about to go to genting as soon as possible :(

That's all from me. Im waiting for a miracles to come and knock my heart this becoming 1st Maay :) Till then. Bye y'llzz! =p