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I am now been busy in doing exercise everyday and already i am feeling better. I need to check my diet now to make sure that i am eating healthily because that is going to make all the difference. Otherwise my efforts in control my eating level will be wasted. Hehehehe
Okay, if you do read my last post, where i wrote about my sad stories. Here is the continues...
"Im not going back"
I stared at myself in the mirror. I shouted!
"Im not going back"
I said it again. I enjoyed the sound of it. There was conviction in my voice. There was certainty in the words. Everything seemed so certain. Everything was clear. For the first time in my life, i saw everything clearly. I knew what had to be done, and i knew i could do it. The answers were simple, and plain, and directly in front of me. Everything had finally clicked. Everything made sense. Those people don't mean anything to me anymore. I walked away from them. i' ve fought against them, i've tortured them, and i've tried to kill them. They are nothing to me, and i must be less than nothing to them.
WHATEVER! GOODBYE TO THEM!
Well, i had a very nice day with my bf and fmily. They are amazing than anything! God I love them! Mama asked me to go for English class in British council, due to my lazy and heavy butt that i have, and due to my very bad habit which is i love to delay my work, i'll go for the registration on the next year. Sorrrry Maaaa! =.= At the same time, i felt tired okay and no free in my time, like i am a worker now, work as a driver for Jajarrr (my annoyed lil sister) Grrrrrrr! In a week i have to drove her to her tuition centre for a twice. Not only that, sometime when she have any desire like about wants an ice cream or somehting like a snack, i have to go out and bought for her Durrrrr! Happy life la eh? Hahahaha well i had fun with it la bytheway. Hmmm well, there's something that not perfect yet, it's about myholiday! Awww, i've been planned about it since last July okay and okay i've to face the fact that my mother is a strict mother. Grrrrrr! So mama when can i go for a holiday? (PUPPY EYESS) your daughter is still waiting for the result laaa =.=
Sigh* Ady, tunggu ehh!
Alololo kesian diaaaa! Hahahaha
If can i wish i can go for a holiday in Tioman maybe? Pulau Perhentian? Aww cant waitt! I'll go to Malacca too, since there is my favourite place to go actually :) I miss Malaccaaaaaaaaaaa! God pleaseeeeee, make it realllllllllll!
Today is December 14 and yeah another of days, 2009 will be leaving us and yeah welcome 2010. Dont you think that time goes really fast? OUCH! I think this year has just flown by it's been really fast!
No la Bakish ishhh time does not go fast. Time is a constant phenomenon. Hahahahaaa gilaaaaaa. When the clock strikes twelve on December 31st, people all over the world cheer and wish each other a very Happy New Year. For some, this event is no more than a change of a calendar. For others, the New Year symbolizes the beginning of a better tomorrow. Yes a better tomorrow, so dont look back! Yes you can do it Bakish. Dont look back! Just dont!
So since new year will be coming in peace in another of days i would make some New Year's wishes. my wishes had to be for something positive i wanted. In addition, they had to be for something new. I could wish all day long that the good things i already had in my life would continue or improve, but those were more like hopes. My wishes had to be for new things to come into my life. So when New Year's rolled around, i was feeling pretty hopeful that my life was getting on track. Just a few things seemed to be missing, and those things are what i wished for that New Year's day. So here i am at the end of 2009, what will i wish for the next year? I can think of very little.
Oh, i still have my hopes. I hope my SPM result will be a greattt resultttt which is with a flying colours. I hope it will be an amazing result and hope that i can creat a smile on my mother's face as i can see she's smile and know that she's proud of me it will be the best moment of my life. Hope that i can get into any local University to further my studies. I hope for a better life equal to a perfect life! I also hope my relationship with my boyfriend stays strong and our love continues to grow, even we do argue everydayyyyy. I hope his transition goes smoothly. i hope that world become more peace and in the future, i do hope that there will be no more earthquake , stunami or whatever God, i cant stand no more to see it again.
One thing i still feel im missing is a strong sense of purpose in my life. How do i wish for that? It's so nebulous. i guess what i'll wish for is the opportunity to become involved in something meaningful, some movement that can helps my mama and makes a difference in my family and that seems right for me. I've been reaching out and trying this and that, but nothing has really felt like home to me yet. So that's what im going to wish for this New Year's day.
And finally, dear readers, I wish that all your New Year's wishes come true! InsyAllah :)
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