2009

Heyhaaaaaaaa, im back babyyy ;p hmmm hmm i've deleted my old blog. Heeee for some reasonsss >.< I want to forget and leave all my past stories for seriusly past is past i dont want to think about it again i dont want to meet the same bastards & bitches,hope they are not around me anymore i just dont wanna hear about them anymore so yeah this is a new me new bakish new balkis new siti hahaha enjoy yeah ;p

Yes i admit it aint easy, swear it aint easy. i swear its hard. i miss you,so much. <3 I mean YOU!

Single? Its the most annoiying question and they just cant stop asking me. I'll be asked at family gatherings, particularly weddings. Men will ask me it on first date and i will ask myself it far too often. Its the question that has no good answer and that never makes anyone feel better. Its the question that when people stop asking it make me feel even worse.

I want to disappear. i want to just be gone. i've been so alone, hey thats crap i cant live alone! i've been praying a great deal and learning things. i have not written anything about who's the one that making me sad because it is deeply personal. So maybe if i can slowly start making friends with people maybe i can do better this time. Kan? ;p Anyways for me it's much easier not to know things sometimes. Sometimes, it's better to write than talk. Hmm thats all for this entry. ok byeeeeee